My dual persona

I could not write anything for the past three weeks. I decided to post atleast one in a week and missed it.



I was riding scooter back home from work, mind started to wing with heavy persuasions about the happening from morning till evening at work. I am happy when someone praise me or support me passing positive feeling but life contains contrary actions. When there is praise/support definitely should there be a critics on you. Its hurting to me when someone criticize my particular act and I am not doing so. But its good to hear such critic so I get maturation and liberal. Why should I get hurt when get criticized, No! I wouldn't. Will learn to take life neutrally, when there is up definitely there will be down. But its how I perceive the situation, considering the critic it helps dive deeply in myself and fine tune the self.



So what's about dual conduct in me. It can be in my perception or others', I believe doing good things to others utmost and not harm. Someone feels what I do is harm to them may not be an harm in my view. So I play dual persona here. Everyone of us should be having this dualistic nature and which should not be concerned self because its the way of life. If I start worrying about the critic that will make me down rather I accept it and grew myself.

Always knowingly or unknowingly been dualistic all the time to satisfy others(myself).

Hope is the rope of life

How will you feel? If your hope does not happen. Everyone of us feel bad,lost hatred to self etc. Why do we do that? Because its our inner wishes is proclaimed as hope and we believe that is going to happen. When wish is not met you turn negative. I would not do that, meaning practicing to have real hope which is viable. If I wish to become a CEO of XYZ Limited, should hope to work maximum to get elated where I am at now. It may not happen in 5 years, but in 20 years? I start at junior level and do my job with honesty and fullfil the expectation as an employee gradually that will lift me to bigger positions. I know when you pass the road of success there buds people who feel enmity on you.

You will be defeated by then buds now trees, but that is fugacious. My hope is to work and do not lose the vision of becoming CEO. This hope does not put me down, does not feel get defeated, does not feel lost, does not stop hoping. Real hope will work even better than the past, in a war when you feel losing, battle it robustly. I will look for my weakness rather looking strongness of opponent. If I chose to notice opponent's strength I lose to see my weakness whereas I chose to watch my weakness which will construct myself better and control and win the battle. Watching my weakness is double bonus(self weakness = strength of opponent).

Let's hold the r(h)ope and travel through the life towards milestones and destination.

Control of your life

The control of my life lies in me, I believe it. I love newton's third law which is nothing but the karma what we do. I am assisting my friends and relatives but still am suffering with this, that etc. Why is it so? I sit and thought about it, strong belief is that karma plays a bigger role in that. We plant a seed and will have to wait for sometime according to the plant's nature to bear the result.



Likewise I will have the cause and effect according to the density of the cause which we do will give the double effect. I will see the positive side of it, how? I got a good job and earning to meet my wishes. How did I get it? My Karma? Yes! I wished for it. If I wish and have perseverance towards it, definitely that will be achieved.



I suffer with family problems, I don't complain why is it happening to me when I have not done anything wrong. Sit back and think about it, you will not be able to trace the thoughts/actions which we did long back(may be earlier births). I hear lot of minds thinking, why should I suffer for which did previous births. Some questions is unanswerable to humans, we may get answers when we go divine.



I decided to take everything as positive in me, how do I spend this single day positively. I was coming back from a place in Kerala to catch the train, I ignored a bus and planned to get into the second bus for some other reasons I had to get into the first one. But my mind was not happy getting into it, I did not know why?



A few kilometers before to the stop where I have to get down bus met with an accident. I suffered from very minor injuries, I took it positively like I was saved not to get leg or hand getting broken. So I was able to cope with the situation and was able to think next course of action. Its we dont hear what our inner voice's message most of the time.



To hear the inner voice, what should we do? I am thinking....

Honesty to self

I thought of sharing about honesty to ourself. The biggest truth in this world is, we never been honest to ourself all the time. That means, we try to cheat self. I hear you asking me, how do you say something like this? Why would I need to cheat myself?


When you do something, always watch whether you do with atmost honesty.

Self Discipline is the first lesson

I believe self discipline is the first lesson to be learnt for being human. When I travel on the road, how many times we stop in the signal when it is red though there is none to monitor you. I heard a passage somewhere that "being a good person is important when you are not watched". It's so truthful, we never been honest when there is nobody to watch or recognise us. We try to pretend being honest when there is always some benefits.

Honesty to ourself is very important to the path of truth. It starts from me and I not you and him/them. I will try to overcome the lies and false habbits which I have and reap tremendous improvement.

Ok, coming back to self discipline, how do you proceed about it? Its about all the habbits we have, every thoughts we do. For example, I believe that I can getup at 4 am and do meditation when I go to bed but when the alarm wakes you and your mind badly need to continue to sleep. Oh! what a game it(mind) plays.: (a)I am tired to get up now (b) I have been working very hard yesterday (c) Oh it was late when i went to bed, mind will make excuses on and on...

How will I overcome this? When mind play all the tricks I question myself how important sleep is when compared to the meditation? So I realise the truth will get up and do meditation. Determination is one of the practice to achieve self discipline. I determine to get what I want.

But many times the trick wins! But I determined to make myself to getup at 4 am :-)

Welcome to the real world

Hi There!

Join me in the travel to the path of Sat(truth) the final destination. I would be writing all silly thoughts and actions we do to survive in this world and continue the travel. I would call this as a online satsanga(union of truth). Please feel free to contribute with your comments.

Asatoma Ma Sadgamaya
asato ma sadgamaya
tamaso ma jyotirgamaya
mrtyorma amrtam gamaya.

Lead me from the untruth to the truth
Lead me from darkness to light
Lead me from death to immortality.